Muscle Memories: The Life and Death of a Champion I used to work out daily. I bragged a 425 pound. bench press, a 1000-pound seated squat, and 125-pound dumbbell presses, yeah really, and that was just for openers. I lived for anything that supported misdirected toxic masculinity. …

Some would say I’m a swine. Totally corrupted, morally bankrupt, incorrigible, an unforgivable deviant of unimaginable proportions. But hey, I’m lovable. Okay, well, maybe I’m being a bit hard of myself. Sure, I’m all those things mentioned but just not to the degree I at times imagine myself to be…

‘Your Time Is Gonna Come’ Ever since I was a little kid all I keep hearing is, “your time is gonna come”. It resonates in me like a bad case of the clap. Whoever said it, I’m pretty sure they’re right, but for what it’s worth my time hasn’t come…

I’m half crazy, slightly socially retarded, and prone to mildly violent outbursts, but I come by it honestly. We barreled down I-294 heading for home from the far Southwest Side of Chicago. It was late, it was dark, very dark, we were held in winters grip. My kid brother slept…

No Harm in a Little Moral Turpitude Some people say forgive and forget, ah well, I don’t know. I say forget and just accept it, then just get the hell out of town. It’s quick, it passes you by in a flash this thing called life, always too quick, sometimes…

The Cubans. It was the Cubans, they were the most dangerous, the ones you had to steer clear of. They weren’t just any Cubans though. The Marielito’s they called them. …

‘Don’t Feed the Pigeons’ Sometimes you find the of meaning of life in a place where life means so little. Some of my best learned lessons were taught by the worst kind of people. Most evenings, Gene Lewis and I rounded the long perimeter of the dusty desert prison yard…

Everybody is in search of something. Some people know what we are looking for. Others, have a vague idea. Many, have no fucking idea at all, never have never will. For some it’s, material wealth, others search for love and acceptance, I suppose we all do to some degree, while…

Each of us has a road we must walk down in our lives. For many, the road is straight and predictable, others come to a fork in the road, and they must choose the path they will take for whatever reasons they have at that time. None have the same…